Rarely can I predict what kind of day I'm going to have until I actually start running. This past half marathon (The Iron Horse) that I did was the original goal race. When I signed up, I thought that there was no way I could ever do a half. This was the race that my family was doing, and this was my main goal to conquer.
Well, fast forward a bit, and I had started to really love running. By the time of Iron horse, I had signed up for a full marathon. I did Fort4Fitness, which was my first, I had done two 16 milers and a 10 mile race- all back to back.
When I got into the "corrals" (there were none) for the Iron Horse, I thought to myself, "I don't want to do this." I wasn't excited for the race, I had run 16 miles the weekend before, and I was tired. I had a pretty bad race, and I worried myself. Am I falling out of love with running? Why wasn't I excited?
Thankfully, I had an awesome 6 mile run yesterday that brought me out of my funk. While I was running, I was thinking about how I need to not take each run too seriously. If I have a bad run, I have a really hard time letting it go and not worrying. If I have two bad runs in a row, I freak. I can't stop thinking, "Why am I having such bad runs? Why am I not improving? What am I doing wrong?"
George has even told me that I'm "mean" when I have a bad run. (I will admit he's right). I once told him that he was bad luck. Whenever I ran with him, I'd do horribly and would get upset. I get so frustrated because I'm putting in a solid effort, and when it's time to show someone else how hard I've been working, I can't perform. Anyways, it makes me want to throw a tantrum. I do get mean, and I've decided to make a conscious effort to stop.
On the flip side, when I have a good run (like the one I had yesterday), I feel on top of the world. I have a huge smile on my face, and I can't wait for my next run. I have a total runner's high and a renewed confidence in my training.
I guess the whole point of this post is to just say that you will definitely have highs and lows in running. The important thing is to realize that the lows are lows and you will get better, and the highs, as awesome as they are, are not there to stay. It's a new goal of mine to not get so wrapped up in the two extremes. Instead of focusing on runs individually, looking at my progress on a weekly or monthly basis.
What do you think? Do you have this problem too?