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Monday, September 30, 2013

A Pretty Amazing Weekend

Ok, so I had planned to do a race recap for today's post, but I don't have any pictures yet.  I was SO terrible about taking pictures, so I need to wait for the race photos.  I'll give you a quick rundown of my  AWESOME weekend.


George and I drove up to Fort Wayne and checked into our hotel.  We had a mediocre pasta dinner and went to bed at 8:30.


Woke up early and did the Fort4Fitness half.  George did the 10k.  More details about the race to come in a later post.  I finished in my goal time (if you follow me on Dailymile or Instagram, you already know what my time is, but I'm saving it for my recap post) and George was just 16 seconds above his goal. 
**Spoiler alert: he came in 1st in his age group and 6th overall...out of over 1,800 participants. More bragging about my awesome husband to come. :)

I MUST mention that I was able to meet some of my absolute favorite bloggers.  At first, I was a little nervous to introduce myself, but they all gave me the warmest welcome.  It was absolutely awesome to have so much support from them during my first half.

Left to Right: Mel from 4Kottez, Me, Megan from Skinny Meg, Holly from Where We Can Live Like Jack and Sally, and Brandi from Mama Laughlin.
 Again I say, more about meeting the girls later.

After the race, G and I drove back to Indy and laid around for a while.  We were both walking like 80 year olds 60 year old Hoosiers, so we didn't get a whole lot accomplished.

We were, however, able to get ourselves cleaned up for a dinner out with my parents.  Dinner was at "The Loft."  It is in the upper half of an old barn at Trader's Point Creamery.  They grow their own produce and make amazing cheese.  The food was decent, but for $30 an entree, it's not worth it to sit in a barn and eat quinoa.  I prefer hole in the wall Mexican restaurants.

Exhausted and the Greek

My Awesome Parents


George and I slept in, wore flannel PJ's and watched a ridiculous amount of TV.  These kinds of days are my favorite.  It rained all day, and we just stayed in and cozied up on the couch.  Besides the normal Sunday chores, I came up with a few concoctions.

I found this super yummy Pumpkin Streusel bread at Target.  Each slice is 120 calories.  When you spread this Laughing Cow cinnamon cream cheese on it, you are IN HEAVEN.  Each wedge has more than enough for two slices, so I made a slice for George too.  I used a little less than half a wedge, so that's around 20 calories.  Really, this is not a bad treat for 140 calories, and it's like fall in your mouth.

For dinner, I made some beef stew in the crock pot.  I call it Lazy Girl's Beef Stew.  I'm thinking of sharing the recipe, but I don't measure anything out.  I just use your basic beef stew staples then stand over the crock pot like a mad scientist adding random spices and ingredients.  I need to make it one more time and pay more attention to what I'm doing.  The best thing about making stuff for two in the crock pot? Leftovers!

Sami's Shenanigans

What were you up to this weekend?

Friday, September 27, 2013

Runnin' and Bloggin'

Hello everyone!  It's Friday, and I'm going to make this 5 on Friday quick and dirty!



Tomorrow is the Fort 4 Fitness half marathon, and I'm a good mix of nervous and excited. This is not only my FIRST half marathon, but I will be meeting some other awesome bloggers like Mama Laughlin, Skinny Meg, Mel from 4Kottez Runs It, Holly from Where We Can Live Like Jack and Sally, and more.  These were some of the very first blogs that I read, so I'm really pumped to meet everyone.

About the race: My last run was beyond terrible, so I'm hoping I can pull my shiz together and finish this beast strong! I'm going to try to plan out my pace and stick to it.  (NOT going all Pocahontas and spring through the woods like I did here.)  It's supposed to be pretty toasty, but Im hoping that I can beat the heat.  Highs in the 80's.
 George has a bum knee, so he's doing the 10k, but I know he's going to rock it!  The race is in Ft. Wayne and ends inside a baseball stadium!  Your last .1 mile, you run around the bases and cross the finish line at home plate. How fun!
*Side note: George asked if he could slide into home plate/finish line :)


I keep track of all of my runs on Dailymile. Who else is on there? I would love to make some new friends! My user name is: BeautyGreekBlog.  So far, I'm friends with Amanda from The Lady Okie and Ashley from Coffee and Macarons. If you haven't checked out their blogs, and you're interested in running, you must!
*Shout out to Ashley running in the Brewer's Mini Marathon this weekend!


I've been nominated for a Liebster award by some fabulous bloggers!  How exciting!  I'm working on going through the questions and compiling the post.  Expect it to be up in the next couple weeks.


How in the heck do I create an RSS feed?  I've been tossing the idea of joining BlogHer (thoughts on that anyone?), but I need to set up an RSS feed first.  I've tried to read a few tutorials, but I'm seriously still not understanding this.  Does anyone out there know of a good tutorial?


Are you a "no-reply blogger?"  I try to reply to all of the comments you guys leave me, but it's so frustrating when some don't have their emails attached to their comments.  Take a second to check out THIS awesome tutorial by Venus Trapped in Mars.  She walks you through the super simple steps of fixing this problem!


That's all I have for today.  I'd also like to thank my new followers on Bloglovin'!  If you are newly following me, leave a comment.  I would love to check out your blog as well!

Also, wish me luck in this half... I'm getting more and more nervous by the minute.  I'll be posting updates on Instagram and Twitter.  No matter what my time, I suppose that it will be a PR because I've never done it before. :)

What are you up to this weekend? Any dailymile people out there? Any RSS wizards?

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

To Do: Eat a Cheeseburger

Hello all!  Today I would like to talk about a topic that is very personal for me... eating cheeseburgers. I'm kidding, I'm kidding.

I decided to write this post after one of the many times I've been told to eat a cheeseburger.  As I've been more open about my running and sharing my progress, many comments have come in through social media.  Most are very supportive, but I've also gotten a small bit of resistance.  Friends and acquaintances have questioned my new passion for running.

"Why are you running so much?"
"You're too skinny already."
"You need to eat a cheeseburger, not run."

Now before you get all, "Wahhh, you're skinny. Don't complain!"  Hear me out.

I've been thin my whole life.  I started in ballet around age five and continued until seventeen.  While being thin was a very important part of being a successful ballerina, I never had to really work at it.  I would dance 8 hours a day (went to high school half days), and I would eat my dinner in the car on the way home from ballet.  On weekends, after a full day of dancing on Saturdays, my friend and I would eat a full box of pizza rolls while watching old ballet videos.  Ice cream after that.  No matter what we ate, we would burn it off in the next day of strenuous dancing.

                                                                     Age ten or eleven?                                   Myself in the middle with some ballet friends in Taiwan

Once I quit ballet and went to college (best decision I ever made), I still worked out, but definitely didn't enjoy it.  I ran a tiny bit on the treadmill and used the elliptical, and I was bored to tears! It made me sad that I couldn't find a form of exercise that I liked even a tenth as much as I enjoyed ballet.  My diet was so-so.  I would eat some junk food, and then get back on track with a normal, healthy diet.  Throughout all of this, my weight stayed the same, and I was happy with the way I looked.

Junior year of college Spring Break

After college, I was on the same diet and exercise plan as before: weighing myself occasionally, running when I had time, and sticking to a fairly healthy diet.  I was still happy with how I looked at this point.

So fast forward a few years, and that brings us to June of this year.  Over the past few months, I've been in "half marathon/marathon training mode."  I've lost a little too much weight from not replacing the calories burnt by running 20-30 miles/week.  I wont get into the details, but my body wasn't happy.  Well, you know you can always count on a cruise to pack on a few LB's and get you back to a healthy baseline. :)

Now that I'm back to where I need to be on my weight, I'm really paying attention to eating enough.  I'm huge on fresh fruit, cottage cheese, almonds, hummus, and veggies.  I eat that almost every day in addition to my normal meals.  I am the happiest I've been with how I look in a long time. I'm gaining muscle tone,  happy with my weight, and most importantly, feeling the best I've felt in years! 

August 2013

Here is where the cheeseburger thing really starts to bug me.  By telling me that I need to eat a cheeseburger, you're telling me that there's something wrong with the way I look. There is nothing wrong with the way I look.  I'm a naturally thin person, who is perfectly healthy, and again, feels fantastic.

I'm not saying this to "attack" those friends, family and coworkers who have made these comments in the past.  I know that they're being honest and maybe even trying to compliment me?  

I know this can make me look like I'm being a little too sensitive, and maybe I am, but I have to get it off my chest.  People (mostly when I was a teen) have asked how I found pants that fit, why I was so thin,  if I had an eating disorder, they have assumed that I had an eating disorder, and gossiped about my "eating disorder" (that they had assumed existed). 

I guess my point is that I would never tell someone that they DON'T need to eat a cheeseburger, so why would someone tell me that I DO?  Talking directly to someone about their weight is fine, but when you're giving your unsolicited opinion about what is wrong with their weight, I think that is rude.

Well, I'm here to say, that I'm over it.  I don't mean it passive aggressively.  I truly mean it.  People can go on telling me that I need to eat a cheeseburger, and I will smile and laugh, then move the subject along. 

What are your thoughts?

Monday, September 23, 2013

Run for the Fund Race Recap

Hey everyone!  Happy Monday!

This past Saturday, I did the Run for the Fund 10 Miler.  George did the 10 miler, and my parents did the 5k.  It was a GORGEOUS day, and we all had a great time.

Wore my new running top mentioned here and I LOVED it!
The course was pretty amazing.  It lead you through an older, downtown area of Noblesville and then out into the country, through a park covered bridge, finishing at the high school.  It wasn't a down and back or figure eight course, so every part of the course was new.  

I treated this race as an experiment.  I had never "raced" this long of a distance before, so I really wanted to concentrate on pacing myself.  I went out at a pretty slow pace and was honestly one of the last ones in the pack.  This is where I almost started to panic a little.  I was thinking, "Oh God, I'm one of the last ones, everyone else in this race is so fast, I'm going to finish last."  I kept with my plan of starting out slow and increasing my pace every mile or so.

Around 4 miles, I started to pass a lot of people that had stopped to walk or slow their pace to a jog.  This is where I got excited.  My plan had paid off!  I still felt like I had a ton of gas in the tank.

I walked through every water stop, just walking long enough to actually drink my water and not throw it in my face hoping some would make my mouth.  At five miles, I ate my half packet of applesauce. 

Gracie thought I had a treat for her
I think I've found my new mid run food! It is resealable, and easy to stow in your flip belt.  I think it's much tastier than Gu and far less of a choking hazard than something gummy.  I'm going to try it again for the half this weekend.  So happy I found something to eat during my marathon!

Anyways, after I hit the 6 mile mark, I took off like a bat out of hell.  I was running through the woods, there was no one else around me, and I was kind of having a Pocahontas moment.  Woot woot!  I felt awesome!  Kept around an 8:40 pace!  I was thinking, "You're killing it, Em! Finish strong!"

Then I crapped out, hard.  I had two miles left ,and I was woofed.  I walked through my water stops and  stopped a few more times for 20-30 second walk breaks. Definite lesson learned there: Don't go balls out with 4 miles left.

My goal was to finish under 1:45.  I finished just a hair over 1:40.  If I would have sucked it up and really pushed myself for the last two miles, I would have been under 1:40.  I did meet my goal though, so I'm happy.

If you would have told me 6 months ago that I would run 10 miles
 under a 10 min pace, I would have told you that you were drunk.

So, here is the point where I brag about my husband.  George finished in 65 minutes and some change. That is a 6:33 min/mile pace.  He's so speedy and still so humble.  I freak out when I hear how fast he ran, and he calmly says that he is pleased and leaves it at that.

My parents did the 5k.  My dad ran it and shaved a few minutes off his last 5k race time!  My mom walked it as well.  She has a bum lung and still gets out there and does it.  I'm very proud of the old folks. :)

George got 3rd in his age group, and my dad and I got second in ours.  Don't be happy for me, there were only two people in my age group. Ha!  We were the two youngest people doing the 10 miles.  The other girl ran around an 8:00 pace. I'll get her next year? <doubt it

Next weekend, I'm doing the Fort4Fitness half marathon, and George is doing the 10k.  I'm excited, but nervous as well.  I'm going to take it easy this week and just run a few times under 5 miles.

Coffee & macarons

Did any of you have a race?  Coming up on any races?

Friday, September 20, 2013

Cool Running, Swinging Violations, & My Brave Bestie: 5 on Friday

Good morning everyone! It's becoming an every Friday tradition to do the 5 on Friday linkup.  Normally, I try to have somewhat of a theme to these, but today's are completely random.

1.) Cooler Weather, Better Runs

Sweaty Selfie
On Tuesday, George and I went to one of our usual running spots.  About 15 minutes away from us, there is a nice paved trail with minimal biker traffic.  From where we park, you can do five miles down and back.  George did the five, I chose to do four.  We have a ten mile race this weekend, and I'm trying to take it easy.

The cooler weather was amazing, and I felt like I was going kind of fast.  At the two mile mark, I looked down at my phone and thought that there was no way I was going that fast.  I never run that fast!

After I turned around, I thought, "You probably went out too fast and will crap out later."  But, I didn't!  I actually finished 45 seconds per mile faster than my best four mile time.  So, heck yes for the cooler temps!

2.) Lieutenant Aly

Read more about this picture here.
I ran across this picture on Pinterest, and I had to share it with you guys.  Besides the tattoo giving so much meaning to the picture, I can't help but notice the medic in the back.  One of my dearest friends, Aly, just left for trauma training in Miami.  I was her preceptor in the ER, so we have become close friends.

Aly is about to do her second tour in Afghanistan and leaves in November.  Seeing this picture and imagining her in that situation makes me so proud, but also makes the dangers of her job very real. I can't help but worry. Stay tuned for a post about Aly in November.

3.) Wrecking Ball


Changing gears, I saw this news story, and I can't stop laughing about it. For those of you that haven't seen Miley Cyrus's new music video, she is swinging around on a wrecking ball...nude.

At Grand Valley State University, they have a statue of a wrecking ball that had to be taken down due to college students, also swinging on it... nude... as they spoof the music video.

Read the news story here.

4.) Water Stops

Purchase this here.
This could not be more true.  On my runs 10 miles and over, I pretty much only focus on the shorter, current goal.  Most of the water stops are around 2-3 miles apart.  When I think "Nine down seven to go," it's easy to get overwhelmed.  Thinking "Just 2 more miles until water," makes it much more tolerable... I think. Hahaha

My blog post "Holy Sh*t, I'm Doing a Marathon" is actually being repinned on Pinterest!  Kind of exciting.  (Here is the link to the actual pin.)  I'm hoping to do more posting about my actual training week by week starting on Monday.

5.) Cold Weather Running Gear

Gracie Photobomb
The weather is cooling off in the midwest, and my early morning runs are getting chilly.  I had to wear a hat and gloves on my last long run, and I came to a realization.  I have NO cold weather running stuff.

The next day, George and I went to Costco, and I found some great stuff!  I picked up some warm gloves that have grippers on the underside, so you don't drop your phone.  The fingers also allow you to work your touchscreen phone.

I also got up a long sleeve running top.  There are holes for the thumbs, and it seems like it will be perfect for wicking away sweat.  It's so comfy, I'm trying to resist the urge to just wear it around the house.

So, that is all I have for now!

What cold weather running gear can you not live without?

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Fall Haul- Cosmetics

Hello everyone!  As a follow-up to yesterday's post, I am doing a "cosmetics" Fall Haul.  Like my clothing picks, these are definitely affordable.  I use mostly MAC products on a daily basis, but I'm always trying new drugstore brands as well.  Some of the items below are from Sephora, but in a smaller, cheaper size.  Why spring for the large if you haven't even tried it yet?

Anyways, here are my fall picks:

1.) Benefit- They're Real! Mascara

I'm a huge mascara girl.  I'll stick to one for a few months, then totally switch to another.  I can't help the feeling that there is always something better out there.  Lately, I've been obsessed with Covergirl Clump Crusher, but this mascara gives it a run for its money.  It makes your lashes long, separated, and it has a spikey ball thing on the end to get the little lashes.

2.) Glam Glow Mask

I've been DYING to try this mask after seeing that gross picture on Pinterest (example here).  This stuff is supposed to suck the dirt and oil right out of your pores.  The down side, I wasn't willing to drop $70 at Sephora on a product that I hadn't tried.  The upside, they now sell a smaller size!  I picked up a 0.5 oz size for $19.  Maybe I'll do a review later?

3.) Urban Decay- De Slick Makeup Setting Spray

This stuff is wonderful for hot, sticky summer air.  After you're done doing your makeup, spray a few sprays on your face (from an arm's length away).  It helps keep your makeup on and grease off of your face.  This is perfect for a 12 hour shift at work.  I don't start looking like a tired, grumpy hag until about hour 10 now. :)

4.) Sonia Kashuk- Blending Sponge

I honestly haven't tried this yet.  I was too cheap to spring for the Beauty Blender that I've been seeing everywhere lately, so I went for the Target version.  I plan on using this for special occasions where I spend a little more time on makeup.  Most days, I just use my fingers, so I'm interested to see if this thing really works.

5.) Sephora- Primal Instincts Eyeshadow Palette

Holy moly, I got this for $28.  There are 14 colors, and each shadow is a decent size.  Some shades are shimmery and a few are matte.  This palette has a ton of fall colors that work for day and night.  I still can't get over the price.  LOVE.

6.) L'Oreal- Magic Lumi Highlighter

Spoiler alert, this is going on my next favorite things list.  This is, by far, my favorite thing on this post today.  I LOVE this stuff.  You just click the bottom, and a little bit of the product squirts out onto the brush.  I put it in a triangle shape under my eyes, and it covers dark circles SO well.  It's a wonderful product if you're just getting into highlight and contour and don't want to look like a freak if you do it wrong.  Seriously, go get you some!

7.) Too Faced- Tan Without the Twinkle Bronzer

Ok, let me start off by saying that this bronzer smells like chocolate.  It smells SO awesome.  I got it in a smaller size at Sephora that comes with a pretty high quality brush.  This stuff is a great matte bronzer that gives you a hint of color, but not a summer tan look.  Perfect for fall when your skin tone is a little lighter.

8.) Urban Decay- 24/7 Eye Pencil in Perversion

Best eyeliner ever.  It goes on really creamy and blend-able.  I put mine on and smudge it a little with a stiffer, flat brush.  It truly doesn't budge.  I also have kind of sensitive eyes, and some of the heavy duty long lasting stuff makes my eyes puffy, but not this stuff.  This is definitely a must have!

Alright ladies (and gentlemen?), that's all I have for today.

What are some of your fall beauty must haves?

Monday, September 16, 2013

Fall Haul- Clothing

Hey guys!  As promised, I'm sharing some of my favorite new purchases for fall.  As always, I found stuff on clearance and used lots of coupons and rewards to get some great deals.  As you can see, I chose a lot of neutral colors along with skinny stripes.  These will make it easy to pair lots of bold accessories.

1. Grey skinny "Rockstar" jeans from Old Navy:

I've worn my white skinnies to death this summer, and I'm so sad to put them away for fall and winter.  I wanted a cool weather alternative to jeans, so these grey skinnies work perfectly.  I can't wait to tuck them into some black riding boots with a cozy sweater.

2. Striped light weight Hoodie from Old Navy:

This hoodie is amaaazing.  I'm thinking about buying it in some other colors.  It's really light weight (not your traditional sweatshirt), so you can pair it under a jacket when it gets chilly.  So soft and comfy.  It's actually under the "lounge" category on the Old Navy website.

3. Chambray button down from J. Crew:

For some reason, I was putting off getting one of these shirts.  I kind of thought that it was  a trend, and I would be buying one too late in the game.  WRONG!  It looks like chambray is here to stay, and I finally have one of my very own.  The J. Crew one is a little bit more than I typically spend on a shirt, but well worth it.

4.) Striped cardigan sweater from Banana Republic

This sweater is my favorite purchase in a long time.  It is super soft and comfy.  I like to wear it over a simple tank with jeans.  It isn't on sale yet, but I bought it with my Banana card and got 35% off.  Do yourself a favorite and pick one of these up.  You won't regret it!

5.) Cream striped henley from Old Navy

At first, I was kind of so-so on this shirt.  It has ruffles, and I'm definitely not a ruffles kind of girl.  It was DIRT CHEAP at Old Navy and is perfect for layering.  SOLD!

6.) Converse dress from Target

Oh Target... my HG.  I found this Converse dress on clearance.  Technically, it is a summery dress, but it is perfect for grey tights, brown boots and a cardigan.  The neckline is high enough that you can wear it to church (a BIG struggle of mine- finding cute/conservative clothes to wear to church that aren't boring).  The cinched waist would also be perfect with a chunky belt.

7.) 3/4 Cardigan from Old Navy

Yup, I sound like a broken record when I say that I got an amazing deal on this cardigan.  I'm thinking that pairing this sweater with a fall scarf and some boots will be really cute.  It is super soft, and I'm already eyeing it in some other colors.

Stay tuned for tomorrow's post: Fall Haul- Cosmetics.

What are some of your fall clothing favorites?

Friday, September 13, 2013

Help Me!

Hello everyone!  It's finally Friday, and I'm ready for the weekend!

I'm, once again, linking up with 5 on Friday to ask you five questions about what the heck I should do with our new house.  As the planning is coming to end and the actual construction begins, I have a few more decisions.  I need your help!  So please let me know your two cents about the five below!

Front Loaders:

I've read some slightly negative things about front loading washers.  Mold buildup, leaking, etc.  I know they sell some top loading ones that have the same washing capacity, but I don't know if they have all of the bells and whistles of a front loader.

 What do you have?  Do you like it?  Would you repurchase?

Pedestal Sink:

I love the look of a pedestal sink in the main floor half bath, but I'm not sure if I'm willing to sacrifice the storage by not having a cabinet.  I suppose once kids are around, you shouldn't have cleaning supplies and stuff near the ground anyways, but I put extra soap and stuff in our guest bath.

Do you like your pedestal sink?  Do you miss the storage for toilet paper and cleaning supplies?


I love the look of these lights for the kitchen, but George brought up a good point.  There could be a problem with dust collecting in the bottom, and I definitely don't have the time or patience to clean those things out frequently.

What do you think?


George and I have gotten most of our furniture from Pottery Barn, but I'm looking to branch out a little.  

Has anyone tried Overstock?  What are your favorite places to buy furniture?

Marble vs. Granite:

We're definitely going with granite for the kitchen, but we were thinking of a lighter marble for the bath.  I know that marble is more porous than granite, but I didn't know if it was a pain.  There is granite that looks like marble, but I'm trying not to limit my choices.

What are your opinions on marble vs. granite for the bathroom?

That is all I have for now, thank you so much in advance for any advice you provide! I'm really excited to share the progress!

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Our Europe Vacation

Well hey there! Here are some pictures from our most recent trip.  George took me to Europe for our one year wedding anniversary.  <Best husband ever

We went to Barcelona, then boarded a cruise that traveled to south France and Italy.  We had a wonderful time!

George's traditional pre transatlantic flight beer

DVT prophylaxis.  Aspirin and compression socks. Yeah, this RN is terrified of blood clots.

Lobby of our hotel in Barcelona.

View from our room. We could see the Sagrada Familia.

Gaudi was certainly...uh...creative?

6.5-7? mile run on our anniversary.  George was nice enough to take it easy on me.

Favorite painting ever on our cruise ship

Beach in Cassis, France

Nutella gelato...I died and went to heaven.  *Note the "Schtroumph" (Smurf) flavored gelato.  For some reason, the Smurfs are huge in France.

Hanging out in Bandol, France (1st photobomb)

The drivers in France are almost worse than the drivers in Greece.  Drove me nuts!

George had flowers put in our room for our anniversary.  Such a sweetie! :)


Before I shoved that cheesecake down my gullet.

View from our balcony.

Villefranche, France

Running in Nice, France

Found a Lemonita (I developed a sick addiction to this stuff in Greece, and I was dying for some more) during our run.  Photobomb #2

George being a silly

Take me back!

Rose in Nice.  Wonderful.

Best salad ever

I could eat this every day.

Cinque Terre, Italy

These poor people couldn't get off their boat.  The waves were too big.

Typical Italian: Speedo, smoking, feathered hair, aloof
These poor people were terrified (and I was taking pictures of rude)

A few brave people walked the plank, but they had to go on and not let anyone else off.

Slept in one of these chairs for a few hours

George being as touristy as possible.

Sunset view from our balcony


George constantly reading the Rick Steves guidebook


Where we made our wish

Tired and hot in Rome, selfie

This winner/sinner wore a brewery t shirt to the Vatican.

Illegal picture of the Sistine chapel.
Fresh Pizza in Capri, Italy

George and I are immature and this Italian lip balm always made us giggle.

Best wine ever

Closest thing we could get to Gracie while away. :)

Ran in to Gene Keady while in the Barcelona airport.

Where are some of your favorite vacation spots?